Life of Sin
I know I want to write this post but my mind and fingers just can’t find the words to type what I feel deep down inside. Although, I know that I am born a sinner and will die a sinner, as a Christian, I do strive to be an example of Christ’s love to others. This means not letting sin shine from me but allowing Christ to shine the brightest in my life. But, sometimes sin can really bring me down into the trenches of life. I know that my flesh is sin as Galatians 5: 19-21 states, “Now the works of the flesh are evident: sexual immorality, impurity, sensuality, idolatry, sorcery, enmity, strife, jealousy, fits of anger, rivalries, dissensions, divisions, envy, drunkenness, orgies, and things like these. I warn you, as I warned you before, that those who do such things will not inherit the kingdom of God.” I want to shine, but I find myself buried in the guilt of sin, and in need of some time with my Father to seek myself again. To know that I am loved and forgiven. This is hard when I feel like unconditional love should not belong to me anymore. I don’t want to deceive myself, but recognize my sins, cleanse myself, and as 1 John 1: 8-10 reads not believe that I am not a sinner, “If we say we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. If we say we have not sinned, we make him a liar, and his word is not in us.”
Knowing that I am a sinner and a Christian, my eyes are open to my sin. I can not be a Christian who appears better than others, who does not understand others, and one who believes less of others. Galatians 5:16 reminds me, “But I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh.” I know that I am blessed to walk with my Lord and Savior through life and I pray that I am an example to others, but I can’t do that if I am looking at my sin through rose-colored glasses. I can’t compare my sin and believe it is less than others. Sin is sin. My sin can not be sugar-coated or viewed differently than others. “For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God,” Romans 3:23. I know wearing rose-colored glasses to look at my life is easy to do. I want to see how good I am and not the sin. It is easy to compare myself to others and believe the lie that I am better, but I know deep inside that I am not.
So what does one do, dig and dig and dig into God’s Word and know that He is my Father. Yes, He is a Father of wrath, but his is also a Father of forgiveness. God provided me a gift through the sacrifice of his Son. A gift of forgiveness that I can not even fathom. Just thinking of this sacrifice makes my eyes water and tears fall. “For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 6:23. and “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” 1 John 1:9. I search scripture to cleanse myself of unrighteousness and seek the comfort of His word for forgiveness. I find myself on my knees with head bowed praying and begging for the forgiveness and love of my Father. Thank you Lord for your gift, “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him.” John 3:16-17
Closing Verse: “So whoever knows the right thing to do and fails to do it, for him it is sin.” James 4:17
Challenge: Look closely at your life and ensure that you don’t perceive your sin differently from others. Sin is Sin and the rose-colored glasses will not change it in God’s eyes.