Brought to My Knees
I am on my knees and trying to figure why I am down here, but God has a way of getting your attention when you least expect it but when you desperately need it. That is where I am this week, in desperate need of my Father. He knew it was coming and that I had been unfaithful to him, so he showed up and brought me to my knees.
As I have stopped to reflect on everything that has happened this week, I see God so clearly calling my name, wanting me to seek him first. The introvert in me turns every more inward to search for what he is trying to say to me. This past Sunday the sermon was titled, “Nowhere to Hide” from Revelations 2: 18-29. What did it reveal to me that I was not hiding, but that God was watching me. I felt it deep down inside his presence with me, I was moved to evaluate my life and our relationship. This began my inward turn, my soul-searching and I felt like I was in a battle or struggle much like Jacob in Genesis 32: 24, ” And Jacob was left alone. And a man wrestled with him until the breaking of the day. ” Was I wrestling with God? Why would I be? Was he making me stronger or bringing me down? I asked these questions, but searching the sermon even deeper I felt like Joseph’s brothers when the gold was found with the grain in their bags. Even before Reuben was feeling convicted of his sins, but God needed to bring them to their knees to show them all his glory.
I pray as I struggle and fall on my knees my eyes will clearly see God and the glory he wants to bring to my life , if I will only stay focused on him. When the blessing flow again, I pray for strength and guidance to stay focused on God and not slip away. Philippians 4:12 reads, “I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need.” This verse reminds me that I will have times of abundance and times of need, yet the Lord will stand with me through both, but I must stay focused on Him.
Leaning on the Lord
God has my attention now that I am on my knees. I am searching for his wisdom and know that he will answer. I know that the pain of this week will turn for good because I believe in his name. Romans 8: 18 promises, ” For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us..” This promise that joy is coming is why I cling to the cross and his word in the midst of the pain that I feel. I will stand and rejoice that God has claimed me as his own. “Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice”, as Philippians 4:4 exclaims! I know now that I can rejoice because he is near. 2 Timothy 4:17 states, “But the Lord stood by me and strengthened me…” I feel him near me and I feel his strength building inside of me. I feel his love and passion overflowing my heart. I feel my Father back home.
Closing Verse: “The Lord is greater than the giants you face.” 1 John 4:4
Challenge: You can face anything with the Lord by your side. Stop, fall on your knees, and pray.