Life isn’t about finding yourself. Life is about CREATING yourself. -George Bernard Shaw
Who Am I?
Maybe I have been trying to find myself for too long, and now I finally realize that I should have been creating myself. So, if I want to create myself then I must look deeply at who I am. So who am I?
I Am A Christian
First and foremost, I am a Christian. I am not a perfect Christian because I fall short of God’ glory each and every day and seek his forgiveness and mercy in my daily life. I believe in and love the Lord Jesus Christ as my Savior. Sometimes, I forget what an important piece this is in my life and that nothing else that I do is more important than my life as a Christian. I am reminded by John 3:16 ““For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.” This famous verse in the core of my faith. God has provided an opportunity for me to show the world how God has saved and blessed me. Recently, My husband and I were given the chance to share his grace with a neighbor. We did not have a sit down and discuss, but just modeled his love and blessings in our lives and tried to help her refocus all her anger and bitterness on the positive. She has just let life get the best of her like so many of us and learning to lean on Christ in both the good and the bad is what should truly define our lives. I pray that I continue to CREATE myself as a Christian so that others will always see Christ as Matthew 7:16 reads, “You will recognize them by their fruits. Are grapes gathered from thornbushes, or figs from thistles?” I pray I bear his fruits.
I Am A Wife And Mother
As I really look at the life I am creating, I see the blessings I have from a loving husband of 28 years and two beautiful adult daughters. I know that as a mother I failed them both many times, but I hope that above all they knew I loved them and Christ. Psalms 127:3 brings me joy, “Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord, the fruit of the womb a reward.” I hope that somehow I showed them how to love those that God will place in their lives both now and in the future. Being a mother never really stops as I continue to pray for their futures, their lives, and that they will be blessed. I could not have been a loving mother without a loving husband by my side. He is my greatest blessing from God. Ephesians 4:32 defines my marriage blessing, “Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you.” My heart hurts when I think about how I have let him down, but the life that he has given me is one of laughter, fun, and dreams lived. He helps me see the future so that I can believe in my own dreams. Each day and each year just gets better and I can’t wait for the future with him. He is the gift God gave me so that I could CREATE the real person that I truly am.
I Am An Educator
God has given me the great opportunity to work with so many children in my career. I get excited when I bring a child and learning together. I love the sparkle in their eyes when the learning means something to them deep inside. I know that this comes from the Lord because Jesus has a special place in his heart for children, Matthew 19:14 reads, “But Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me and do not hinder them, for to such belongs the kingdom of heaven.”” Over the last twenty years, I have been a school librarian and this has changed my life. Working with both students and teachers in this role has allowed me so many opportunities to see not just the success in the classroom but around the world. Proverbs 8:10 clarifies this purpose, “Take my instruction instead of silver, and knowledge rather than choice gold,” I hope that my future somehow holds a piece of this in it because I truly love this part of me, but I know that it is not the definition of who I am or who I want to be. It is just a piece of me, but a piece that I love.
I CREATING Myself To Be Free
What I have learned about myself is that I want to live a life as free as the life Christ has established for me. What does that mean? Psalm 119: 105 explains it this way, “Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path.” I look for the path where I feel free and I find that is when I am on the sand and near the water. This is when I feel free. I want a simple life that is what is deep down inside. I want to CREATE that person who needs less, loves more, and explores the beauty of God’s creation all around me – (but especially those areas near a beach and the water!) Digging deeper into myself has allowed me to really see what I have been created to love and to be. I am ready to start CREATING a new part of me! “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.” Jeremiah 29:11
Closing Verse: Proverbs 16:9, “The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.”
Challenge: Stop trying to find yourself and look deep inside so you can CREATE who God planned for you to be.