I am a Sinner
Yes, I am a sinner and have always known that, but it seems even harder when God reminds me of it such as with the verse that I mentioned last week in my post The Sinner in Me, “for all have sinned and fall short of the Glory of God” Romans 3:23. So I fell short, I listened to the devil on my shoulder and not the angel. I did not seek Christ as my example, so I found sin. I allowed the devil to explain right and wrong when I knew the difference because James 4:17 tells me, “So whoever knows the right thing to do and fails to do it, for him it is sin.”
I knew I was wrong because I made the choice. Two wrongs have never made a right, yet that was the path I chose. A path that did not allow for God’s truth to be revealed but for the devil on my shoulder to reign supreme. “And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.” John 8:32 focuses me on the right path, the path of truth. How did I allow this sin to override all the work I have been doing in my heart? I have been striving to be a better person, yet I was lying to myself about who I was. I was Eve in the garden. Eve according to Genesis 3:20 is the mother of all living things, “The man called his wife’s name Eve, because she was the mother of all living”. Yet, Eve found sin.
Eve in the Garden
I was Eve in the garden listening to Satan and lying to Adam. God reminded me of this example and placed it on my heart, so I study the scripture on Eve and pray that I will learn how Eve found grace in God’s eyes after bringing sin into the world. “And Adam was not deceived, but the woman was deceived and became a transgressor.” 1 Timothy 2:14. Eve had consequences, yet I know God blessed her as the mother of man. “And Adam knew his wife again, and she bore a son and called his name Seth, for she said, “God has appointed for me another offspring instead of Abel, for Cain killed him.” Genesis 4:25. Yet, her sin did bring consequences.
I stand now in Eve’s shadow and pray that I can heal the wounds that I have opened and in the words of George Santanya, “Those who do not remember the past are condemned to repeat it.” May I not repeat my past once again.
So how does one find healing and forgiveness in the midst of sin and hurt? I seek it in scripture such as verses like 2 Corinthians 7:1, “Since we have these promises, beloved, let us cleanse ourselves from every defilement of body and spirit, bringing holiness to completion in the fear of God.” Scriptures like this one should be written on my heart in order to find my way back to Christ. I long for Christ! “You search the Scriptures because you think that in them you have eternal life; and it is they that bear witness about me,” John 5: 39.
Closing Verse: “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” 1 John 1:9.
Challenge: Seek Christ by listening to the Angel on your shoulder